Almost 10 months

So things and things happened throughout this 10 months,
And the good mood of being a uni. student has obviously expired.

Uni. and high school are different, i had expected before i steps into this area,
by honestly, i expected it to be more interesting and enjoyable.
But now, i found it differed from what i expected.

Come from some sides, it is more enjoyable undeniably,
studying for few hours only everyday,
exam be purposely made to a easier way in order to raise our CGPA,
no any compulsory or strict limitation anymore,
can even not to attend classes if you feel good to do so,
and so on.

On the contrary, everyone gathers for those few hours only,
maintaining friendship by outing so frequently, which i think it is easy to be broken,
find no one dare to ask question anymore,
since they are still managed to pass the exam without understanding it at all.

And the most unpleasant thing is, feeling be forced to be mature.

You couldn't say anything without thinking anymore,
since somebody would say you are brainless,
even though you know it was only a joke,
but when the time passes by, and the joke be repeated,
no one would like to be assigned 'brainless',
so they will stay silent from that day onward.

Since when, have to consider whether to talk or not to talk when chatting with friends.
Feels no good for pretending or hiding the true me in front of friends,
but they forced you to.

The funny thing is, i only realized it when i chat with high school friends,
and they said i became so serious suddenly.
Yeah, i admit that i have changed a lot.

By the way, the way of making friends in uni. is different as well,
which is the way i don't like at all.

Since when, once people introducing me, they have to introduce my high school name as well.
Since when, even a bystander, to whom i have to consider to shake or not to shake my hand,
can simple say out the model of my car.

Even though those were not secrets, i still feel not good when simply anyone could know that.

Coming from my side, being friends is a process of digging out his or her secret,
once they would pleasant, or put their trust at you to share their secrets,
then you are undeniably their friends.

嗯，最后还是想用回中文，
是说感觉用中文我会潇洒狂放一点。

话说就这样过去将近10个月，感觉上自己真的在改变，而且已经改变很多。

学业貌似都不占太大重要性了，主要在一大堆人性事故上不断兜兜转转，
有没有进步其实还真不好说，
毕竟我颓废10个月了。

星爷说得好，人生没有目标的人，跟咸鱼一样，
我不想做咸鱼，所以要持续进步，
否则考了个烂成绩，慢朋友们一步进外国大学，就很没面子了。

然后就是在中华的朋友了，好久没看望了，
感觉上自己已经不好意思以中华生自居了，

呵呵还有一个月，大家就要奔放起来了，
然后再过把月，全部人就毕业去申请大学了。

所以，我也要努力考toefl了呢，呵呵。
希望有又好又有水准又便宜又多lenglui的大学收我吧~! ^^

Just steady for final, my strategic

i juz can't help to online,
although tomorrow is my final exam,
and i am supposed to revise or study or do such kind of thingy.

Nehh, so here i am,
to write a blog post in this lovely morning,
after eating a pack of nasi lemak,
and don't even think of studying physic.

So-called 'steady'.

So i went to the sports day last Tuesday,
which was held at Stadium Bukit Jalil,
where is seriously nearby my house,
even though i have classes that day.

And as i dyed my hair,
this was a legendary remarkable journey to get into the gate
particularly under examination of discipline teachers.

Well, they quite friendly by the way,
not even care how old u looks like
as long as u don't wear the stupid house uniform.

And after that i met layang,
and betrayed orange house for sitting in audience seats of yellow house.

In fact, i don't think they care about it.

Then Pei Ru and Wan Wen juz literally ignored the gaps between houses,
wearing the sport clothes but not house uniform,
pretend like they are belonged to yellow house,
and came and did math homework.

It made me suddenly not really that regret to leave Chong Hwa anymore, honestly.

And at last i saw Jammy was checking the rubbish bag,
erm...well haha quite suit her anyway.
But she insisted she was not searching the rubbish but marking it, I wonder that.

The sport day was really boring if without the performance of cheerleading team.
so after the cheerleading i was gone, attended class as felt regret suddenly.

And orange house got third place i heard ^^
and yellow house juz SOMEHOW get first place.

Haha i managed to take a lot photo in the sports day,
but eventually took two.
So sad >.<"

















Right now thinking of watching Pacific Rim after the final, btw I not even finished one subject in the final hahaha,
Fight!Fight!Fight! For the Movieeeee!!!!!!

May in 2013 ^^

Actually I do not have the mind to write my blog in English,
because I am quite sure that in the future when I look back to these this shit thing I will have the strong desire to delete though it stored many of my memories.
But this is life, I could only say, if now I do not do so then will be suffering in the future (based on what my lecturers said).

Nehh, better to stop talking about that no-point stuff.

So, this come through the May so silently and quite surprisingly,
for those who fighting for uec as well as have the admire from me,
half of the life (of fighting) has past.

Talking about that just because I still a bit regret to not do so, it should be interesting.

During my birthday, I received the touching photo from my gang surprisingly,
well, although the idea for the photo is actually quite outdated but I was still almost to cry.
I never expect them to sacrifice that much until all of them gathered just for making a love for me, in those embarrassed posture and gesture especially.
Haha, Love them...well, not really forever, but approaching it.

And also a present from Adrian which is actually not out from my expectation,
but Adrian's style present always make people feel very speechless meanwhile very gamdong undeniably,
so after I have opened at least seven layers of cover for that thing, I got a shell, a definitely normal white lala shell.

Well, and a pack of magic poker hide inside the box, so I wondered why the box is so heavy initially.
and luckily he did that, if not I was going to kill him for wasting my time.

And today is Mother's Day,
I have prepared the present few days ago without any reason but it has made my wallet bleeding as result.
But it is worth while I saw how surprised were my mum in the early morning when I passed her the fully-packed mother's day present.

And for that reason my whole family went to Golden Horse Hotel for a lovely lunch,
it is damn few people and I cant imagine why it should be a six-star hotel,
it is even warmer than a three-star hotel and I just saw loaf of famous (I don't think they are famous actually) people photo hanging on the wall.
So, does the grading of a hotel is all depends on the area covered and amount of Prime Minister visited?
I wonder that.

And now I am suffering from the College Writing assignment,
I have the strong mind to drop that subject now after I strongly regret for the stupid decision I made at the beginning of this sem.
I cant even think of the reasons why she expected us to write a journal referring the format of what APA format,
Cant she just let us search the information online or just google for details then finish that shit assignment personally?

I am now dunno what to do, and the deadline approaching made me mad and pekcek extremely >.<"

This bullshit 2013 years,
buried a lot of my past, and force me to accept lot of new stuff, new environments cruelly.

园游会>.<"

星期六，算是回中华走一趟了。

中华确实有蒸蒸日上的趋势，
园游会一年比一年好，至少参观的人越来越多了。

园游会那天不巧又是大宝森节，
6点半左右就开始塞车到不认得路了，
逼不得已下只好半路下车，走路上学啦~

走下走下，发现已经有点不熟悉那条路了，
很怀念的一条小路，
每一个细节都记得很清楚，但不知道为什么就是感觉到不熟悉。

总之，其实里面并没有那么塞车，
也很难得没有把两条路走成四条路，
走路的印度人也没有堵着路，
就是不知道为什么Jln Ipoh外面很塞车。

一到学校就马上回班，
本来想先到学会那边看下的，
但一到校门就遇见祖恩，然后知道两大元老在那边坐镇着，
为了不抢他们风头就先回班咯...嗯，我实在太好人了。

结果我回班真的很平淡啊，
没有欢迎什么的...不过算啦半班人不在要欢迎也没气氛。
（不过树焕回去有欢呼，我怨念ing。）

婉雯拿着小说在看，直接无视我的存在，
芷仪大姐忙她学会的东西，不鸟人，
苑婷会讲很多八卦，所以暂时避开，
最后找到宇轩，不过两个男人之间也不会轰轰烈烈到哪里去，最后只是讲闲话。

最后还是滚到学会档口帮忙了，
一看到我他们好像很疏远，
连搬西瓜这种没人要做的事情，都宁愿自己做不要叫我帮忙，
居然还需要我自己主动帮忙！？

嗯...难道进了大学就有所谓的“大学生气场”？
虽然戴着眼镜但我不至于太严肃吧！？

搬西瓜不是一件好差事，
尤其是别人奇怪的眼光的注视之下搬的西瓜，
应该是心理作用，因为我觉得别人看我搬西瓜那西瓜特别重。

我很伤心咧，搬西瓜时没有人要跟我聊天，
好啦没有伤心啦，不过有少少尴尬就是了，
因为他们整个把我当成很严肃的样子，实在不好意思讲垃圾话，感觉上会摧毁掉他们自己脑补的我的高大形象。

最后阿Jack来了，最没心没肺的阿Jack来了，
直接问一句‘你帮忙哦？’把整个档口交给我了，我感动到~

换了会服我继续去帮忙，
不过其实我也没做什么，那几个小的虽然小，但很有主见，
加上祖恩很快就回来了，
其实我也没做到什么...

不过祖恩特别见外啊，一直说‘麻烦你咧不好意思’，
感情她把我很久很久以前的‘我会回来帮忙的’这句话当废话了？

安排得差不多后我就去看挥春了，
原以为在光前堂可以吹冷气，哪里知道原来今年在食堂，
那场景很怪异啊，在食堂里面挥春，
不过初一人数那么多也该换个大一些的地方了。

原本要请欣育去玩结果她说有lengzai陪了，
算了啦就去找苑梅扯茶艺组的近况，
她讲到风轻云淡，很让我怀疑她办事能力真的那么高？？
嗯...高人不露相。

再之后跑回去档口翘脚，没办法，帮忙挥春是件吃力不讨好的事情。

然后园游会就开始了。

我不能想象真的有人会买西瓜汁，而且是两块钱的西瓜汁，
嗯...其实我也没喝过，可能很甜吧！？
（木瓜牛奶倒还可以想象，因为牛奶可以帮助丰胸...）

北海道蛋糕依旧很好卖我不知道为什么，
我个人觉得不好吃的说...
不过家长倒是很喜欢这些东西，
还是很豪爽那种地买，以后园游会看到家长就要拼命兜售啊哈哈~

两个小时后终于有空档让我逃脱，
可惜今年只是自己一个人在走，sad咯~

佩如很久以前说要送我她档口随便一个货品，结果我去到时发现被骗了。
（看到一大堆初一仔买仓鼠...怨念...）

再然后走了几次才终于找到武术学会，
摆在臭豆腐附近是鸿健的不幸，八成是今年又没有事先给kopi duit了。
哎，教极都不精。

体育学会太多档了，不过看在嘉萱的面子上我都有一个个去看，
不过最后还是没有买东西，因为都好贵，对我也没用。

至于电脑学会是最后才看到，不过意思意思下，还是把仅存的4块钱固本用在那里了。
——其实那黄金绿茶不好喝的...

还有是醒狮团，他们的running man我看了很久都不知道在玩什么，
半路上也看见很多人背后贴纸可是没有人抢，
所以他们running man是玩什么其实我不知道，
不过好像很受欢迎。
——不过今年新运动场反而人很少，没有热闹到。

再有就是戏剧的flying fox，
我对它唯一的评价，就是玩爽过后要走很远的路回来中场。

走了很久，最后还是回到华文学会档口，
就人生第一次吃了臭豆腐，欣育介绍的，她的口味就是特别奇怪，

以前看很多报导都写臭豆腐很好吃，就以为它真的只是臭罢了其实很好吃，
但它其实根本就很难吃，
咬下去会有‘汁’溢出来，然后那‘汁’就是典型的馊水味，
我不能理解那种酸酸臭臭的东西有什么好吃。
——最后还是喝了半杯奶茶死硬吞才吃得下。

今年终于让佳恬站在前面卖东西了，
不得不说她吸引到不少人买啊...
另外几个女生也不差啊，落落大方站在前面，没有怯场。
——怡恩就算了，那个不叫落落大方，根本没有形容词能用来形容。

还有就是黄群梅老师一开场过来看了看，
然后跟我吹水了几句闲话...幸好没有骂我不告而别。

园游会完过后帮忙善后，
那是一段痛苦的回忆，想起来就觉得腰酸背痛。

鸿健很痛苦，因为他的nasi lemak大半没有卖完，
而且差一点亏本。（没有给kopi duit的后果。）
然后善后完后他痛苦地把饭拼命分出去，
还没有人要那种——看到都觉得可怜。

然后跟芷仪大姐、嘉萱、阿姐、苑婷还有痛苦的鸿健去mutiara叙旧，
叙到6点多才甘愿回家。

累惨！

——今年没有人陪逛校园，真可怜。
——不知道为什么很多人知道我离校，然后很震惊我无私回来帮忙。
——我放了宝宝飞机，她八成要杀掉我了。
——向keni和巧韵兜售很久她们还是不肯买木瓜牛奶，诅咒她们平胸一百年。
——我忘了还阿jack20块钱。
——嗯，应该没有了...

很充实的、2013年的中华园游会 ^^
过程没有按我想象那般美好，
结局也是比较不好的那段，但至少做了个了结。
比较无情一点来说，是很好的时机做一刀两断。

 

 

 

 

离开以后，还要奢望属于中华，

奢望属于着那，我所爱着的学会吗？

2013年第一篇blog~

所以，很平淡地跨年了，
现在最需要做的就是拼命对自己催眠说现在是2013了。

我原本还奢望有人跟我sms还是讲电话来熬过倒数的，
不过事实证明我太天真了，最后是看戏渡过的。

另外原本没打算读高三的说所以什么也没买，
不过不要紧现在是我发挥人缘的时刻了要一本本簿子酱来借。

这不是重点，重点是我原本确实真的不要读高三，
但基于一些原因最后还是选择读了——讲真就算现在也不知是好是坏。

所以说，我是觉得应该要为自己的抉择负一点责任。

毕竟真的、真的很多很多人都劝我早一点进college适应环境好一些，
他们都很为我着想，我理性一点也觉得他们没错，
但我还是固执要读高三（你可以良性理解为这是我对中华的爱和坚持），所以一点点责任是免不了的。

所以学业是必须要搞好的，这一点连质疑的余地也没有，
暂定目标是想做到宇轩那种淡定+佩茹那种热忱的态度——注意，是态度而不是成绩。

——虽然我觉得这个目标很宏大很遥远，不过....嗯，尽力吧...

毕竟有好些强大变态的人都走了，只剩下几个要去新加坡的神人，
因此我也希望成绩也可以好一些来应付父母，
——暂定目标是物理其中一科、数学其中一科&电脑可以拿卓越。

以难度而言，电脑反而是最难拿卓越那科，其次数学，再来是物理，
理论上概率不会超过5%，也就是说理论上读20年高三才可能做到一次，
不过...嗯，尽力吧...

还有就是要弥补没有去读大学先修的坏处，
就是用英文沟通，这个其实更没有条件没有时间去做到，
——话说原本这篇blog也打算用英文写的...
不过...嗯，尽力吧...

选择了高三，代表我要放弃悠闲的大学生活，
代表我还不能光明正大去kaolui，
最重要有几个有兴趣的course都没有时间去上...

还有就是既然要搞好学业，保不准会影响到学会的事，
[（嘀咕ing...）虽然我是管门那个不过那几个高层都很喜欢叫我做东做西的...]
不过今年是以学业优先，很难说我还会不会继续保持那么大的热情。

读高三也不能说有坏处，
不过除非统考真的全A，让全部大学争着让我读，
要不然其实我这一步其实走得有些危险，而且很可能比较吃亏。

可以预见今年会很辛酸，对于一个懒人来说很痛苦。

——所以希望今年lenglui多一些。