Almost 10 months

So things and things happened throughout this 10 months,
And the good mood of being a uni. student has obviously expired.

Uni. and high school are different, i had expected before i steps into this area,
by honestly, i expected it to be more interesting and enjoyable.
But now, i found it differed from what i expected.

Come from some sides, it is more enjoyable undeniably,
studying for few hours only everyday,
exam be purposely made to a easier way in order to raise our CGPA,
no any compulsory or strict limitation anymore,
can even not to attend classes if you feel good to do so,
and so on.

On the contrary, everyone gathers for those few hours only,
maintaining friendship by outing so frequently, which i think it is easy to be broken,
find no one dare to ask question anymore,
since they are still managed to pass the exam without understanding it at all.

And the most unpleasant thing is, feeling be forced to be mature.

You couldn't say anything without thinking anymore,
since somebody would say you are brainless,
even though you know it was only a joke,
but when the time passes by, and the joke be repeated,
no one would like to be assigned 'brainless',
so they will stay silent from that day onward.

Since when, have to consider whether to talk or not to talk when chatting with friends.
Feels no good for pretending or hiding the true me in front of friends,
but they forced you to.

The funny thing is, i only realized it when i chat with high school friends,
and they said i became so serious suddenly.
Yeah, i admit that i have changed a lot.

By the way, the way of making friends in uni. is different as well,
which is the way i don't like at all.

Since when, once people introducing me, they have to introduce my high school name as well.
Since when, even a bystander, to whom i have to consider to shake or not to shake my hand,
can simple say out the model of my car.

Even though those were not secrets, i still feel not good when simply anyone could know that.

Coming from my side, being friends is a process of digging out his or her secret,
once they would pleasant, or put their trust at you to share their secrets,
then you are undeniably their friends.

嗯，最后还是想用回中文，
是说感觉用中文我会潇洒狂放一点。

话说就这样过去将近10个月，感觉上自己真的在改变，而且已经改变很多。

学业貌似都不占太大重要性了，主要在一大堆人性事故上不断兜兜转转，
有没有进步其实还真不好说，
毕竟我颓废10个月了。

星爷说得好，人生没有目标的人，跟咸鱼一样，
我不想做咸鱼，所以要持续进步，
否则考了个烂成绩，慢朋友们一步进外国大学，就很没面子了。

然后就是在中华的朋友了，好久没看望了，
感觉上自己已经不好意思以中华生自居了，

呵呵还有一个月，大家就要奔放起来了，
然后再过把月，全部人就毕业去申请大学了。

所以，我也要努力考toefl了呢，呵呵。
希望有又好又有水准又便宜又多lenglui的大学收我吧~! ^^